5 years ago I tried to kill myself.
I still have the scars on my arm from this time in my life.
At the time, I was sick, I was sad, I was depressed and I saw absolutely no way out.
Through sheer will, a lot of determination and a crazy cacophony of coincidences, I ended up coming off all the drugs I used to treat my anxiety, moods and depression and instead, I began treating myself completely naturally with foods, supplements and mind strengthening techniques.
To my stubborn surprise – this worked!
I replaced feeling sorry for myself with feeling grateful for what I had. I replaced self destructive behavior with books and self-help audio about why I was the way I was. I replaced pity with willingness. I replaced hurting myself with meditating.
It has been an incredible 5 years. Not only was I able to move out to California and make a home in LA & then San Diego, I’ve been able to create (and then bask in) accomplishments beyond my wildest dreams: starting my own award-winning company that gives back, writing a bestselling book about my journey, giving Raelie and my family the life I always dreamed for us, sharing my message all over the world.
Many of you have been there from me from the very beginning of my journey. Some of you even knew me before I began. Many of you met me with love and hugs and hangouts when I first started. Some of you started following along the way.
In getting to know you, my amazing tribe, and being a part of your stories, I am a much better and more learned, open and honest person for it.
I wanted to thank you. All of you. For reading, for being here, for supporting me throughout all of this.
This week I was nominated for Woman of the Year by San Diego Magazine.
But it didn’t always start out that way…
So as a reminder:
If you’re having a bad day, don’t give up.
Don’t EVER give up.
Moments that seem like mistakes are the building blocks of your future.
Events that seem like tragedies are just necessary life trials that are shaping you.
Pain is temporary. Feelings are temporary.
Your temporary feelings will disappear into the ether.
They’re just waiting for you to form and frolic in your self-made happiness.
Don’t give up.
I never thought that in 5 years I would go from the most miserable person I knew
to holding my Woman of the Year nomination and walking a red carpet for my city’s #1 and oldest magazine, glowing with pride.
Don’t ever give up.
You are perfect.
You are worth it.
You are sheer moments away from your dreams.
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