It’s officially been 2 years since I’ve taken a Prescription Medication for moods, anxiety, pain or depression.
24 months since I made the commitment to myself to be sober and clear-headed and well, just for the sake of figuring out Life as it was meant to be experienced, and not under the guise of medications designed to “help me cope”. I feel healthy, strong, and most importantly, extremely inspired to keep fighting for healthy living.
10 years on almost a dozen prescription medications is, let me be clear, not a joke. While I no longer crave drugs to “help deal with things” (they don’t, by the way), have terrible withdrawal symptoms, or am constantly reminding myself of what I’m doing, it is still extremely hard for me to admit when I need help: a remnant left from days where I was convinced that a bottle with a promise was there to solve my problems, and talk-therapy was old news. Having to rely on a pill when I was sad, moody, empty, angry or in pain was mentally, as well as physically and emotionally, damaging to me. I wanted to be focused on creative and logical ways to cope. I wanted to rebuild my neural pathways, to have only myself (and a handful of knowledgable people) to rely on if Life was being difficult ol’ Life ( as it’s wont to do).
The nausea, the dizziness, the pain, the withdrawals, the night sweats, adjusting to seeing things in oh-so-much-Saturated color, the 90463063 books I’ve read, all the research I’ve done, the negative mentalities I’ve fought and the Good Fight for others under this terrible spell have all, honestly, been so SO worth it when I get to wake up in the morning with only myself and my optimism to rely on for a good, comforting, fulfilling life.
I wanted to say thank you, especially here. Creating and sharing my experiences, struggles, good news and bad on My Organic Life has given me a pool of support and love and inspiration that I never even knew existed. You’ve inspired me – and shared with me when I’ve inspired you – to make big, often very difficult, very faith-based life changes that have been absolutely essential in creating and maintaining my recovery.
I understand that what I’ve chosen isn’t a lifestyle that everyone agrees with, or even understands. It’s a choice that I’ve explained – and don’t mind continuing to explain- is extremely personal, but has changed my life in all of the best ways, and it’s something I had to do for myself. That decision to do something for myself was the catalyst for so much positive life change. Thank you all for all of your love and support. For sharing your own struggles with me, for being a rock when I needed one, or a life raft when I was drowning, or a source of comfort when I was in need. It’s made the journey so much easier to have such amazing people by my side.
Love & Light.
Positive Affirmation of the day:
The probability that we may fail in the struggle ought not to deter us from the support of a cause we believe to be just.
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