Thought I’d catch up on some life updates with you since it’s been awhile! I am still decompressing from travel, but I’ve really had some great meetings and made some wonderful friends this week!
I got two modeling jobs from Q & my first paycheck, which was super exciting!
On Saturday I was privledged to participate in the Myth Masque show, modeling gorgeous pieces in a fashion show/performance for my super talented friend Jillian Ann’s new fashion company Ritual, which meant nothing less than meeting a lot of super talented, creative, beautiful, amazing people and being a part of something truly fantastic! Everyone was dressed up like it was Halloween – I really couldn’t get enough of it!
I also got a chance to see the band Marriages and go backstage – which is always a completely enlightening and inspiring position for me as a musician. A few days ago I finally met, hung with and shot/shot with the fantastic & talented Ryan Muirhead, whose work has consistently blown me away for almost a year now.
I’ve been music making my little butt off, not just in the studio in LA but also at home with my own setup. It’s been very therapeutic and wonderful, and the projects I’ve been discussing with people have been very encouraged. I’m so grateful to have such super talented friends & supportive company.
The garden is growing more than I can keep up with it! My corn (supposedly “Knee High In July”) is literally almost as tall as me in May… I’ll find a rhyme for that some day. 🙂
I have new peas, beans and a huuuuge pumpkin vine sprouting! I really can’t wait for harvest! All the wildflowers that I planted have just shot up. I’m looking for a place to plant my Pomegranate tree, which is outgrowing it’s pot, and the Apricot’s are small but green and coming along nicely. 🙂
To be honest, throughout all of this, I’ve been struggling with immense health & personal issues that have made it hard some days to keep a straight face while going through some day-to-day frustrations. I’ve been taking tremendous steps in Perspective Shifting, meaning that when I get really caught up in feeling helpless or hopeless about Chronic Health Issues, I immediately turn to a form of self-therapy in order to find some relief. Recently this has come in the form of reading about others who share my struggles, which I find immense comfort in. Nature walks, even on days where I feel bed ridden, have also helped a lot. It’s a reminder:
There is a big difference between what I think I can do, and what I can actually do.
My Positive Affirmation of the Day:
If you’re struggling, you deserve to make self-care a priority. Whether that means lying in bed all day, eating comfort food, putting off homework, crying, sleeping, rescheduling plans, finding an escape through a good book, watching your favorite tv show, or doing nothing at all — give yourself permission to put your healing first. Quiet the voice telling you to do more and be more, and today, whatever you do, let it be enough. Feel your feelings, breathe, and be gentle with yourself. Acknowledge that you’re doing the best you can to cope and survive. And trust that during this time of struggle, it’s enough.
Thank you very much.
Love & Light